I just called in what I hope will be my last insulin refill.
If you missed part 1 here is a link.
Borrowed from Medical Daily |
I have been injecting insulin for four years. I do not like taking up to 8 shots of insulin a day. I do not like the fear that comes with running out of insulin before I am able to refill it. Insulin as it turns out, is not the answer to healing diabetes. The answer is FOOD.
Food has been my enemy almost my whole life. I have been overweight from the age of twelve on. I believe I hit 200 pounds sometime around thirteen or fourteen. I am tall so no one ever thought I was that fat.
I ate my feelings.
I would eat "comfort food" ie: cheesy and fatty and carb-o-licious. I would eat to celebrate, in a big family this usually means birthday cake! I would eat if I had a bad day. I would eat if I had a good day. I didn't just eat when I was depressed, I would eat when I was bored, or tired, or thirsty! It's a well known fact that Americans as a whole are dehydrated. We mix up our thirst signals for hunger and so we eat.
Back to topic.
Food is still my enemy. I am sitting here eating carrots. I would much rather be working my way through a dozen hot wings with bleu cheese dressing! (It doesn't help that I am watching "the chew") I crave food that is BAD!
Bacon Cheese Fries from Nathan's? Yes please! |
<---- This is what I would want to eat. Daily if possible. I may eventually have gotten sick of bacon cheese fries, but I guess we will never know.
As I have been surfing blogs lately for raw food recipes I have come across a new term. The "Standard American Diet" ie: the SAD.... Sad, it's kinda true huh? Fast food, convenience food, schools that refer to french fries as a vegetable! SAD!
My diet was SAD. BUT, <----that's a big but!
I am happy to say that I am now in day 3 of my raw food 30 days. I have already lost 7 pounds. For those of you freaking out b/c I am pregnant and losing weight, worry not! I am that overweight that in pregnancy it's actually healthy for me to lose weight. As long as I am eating enough calories for the baby and I am getting all of the right nutritional components for the baby, weight loss is actually a positive thing!
Eating raw is not easy. I don't know if you can tell, but I am a little food obsessed. I love raw veggies and I love salad. I also love whipped cream and oreos (not necessarily together, but maybe!). I know this is the right thing for me. I know this is the right thing for my body. I know this is the right thing for my baby!
cucumber slices topped with nut taco "meat" and avocado slices |
Pardon the grainy photo, but this was dinner the first night. --->
It was better than I was anticipating! Flavors were good. It's been so dang hot here that a cool dinner is welcome. I can do this. You would be amazed what you can do with some nuts and seasoning.
Join me on my journey. I will post what I am making and hopefully I can come up with my own recipes soon.
In the mean time I am scouring the interwebs for raw recipes. I have found a few blogs that I am adoring right now.
My next adventure in raw eating is to somehow find all the ingredients to make young thai coconut kefir and yogurt! This is not an easy task in my small New York State town.
On the menu tomorrow:
Breakfast smoothie: Spinach, strawberries, blueberries, and grapefruit juice.
Lunch: Whatever I can find at the farmers market.
Dinner: The same.
Snacks: Fruit and veggies and perhaps a lara bar!
I know this blog is all over the place, but so am I! Keep me in your prayers while I continue this journey. I need all the help I can get!